Cripes!
I'm really sabotaging myself this semester.
I've been getting sick left and right most likely because I'm so stressed and never sleep... but I can't sleep because I've been having such wretched dreams lately! Argh!
I can't wait for my storage pod to get here tomorrow so i can just move EVERYTHING out of my room and have a billion fewer things to worry about.
I can't concentrate o n my paper until then :(
And studying for German? Oh my goodness, please, don't even ask.
Hopefully Tribal Fest will be nice, fun and relaxing, and I hope to goodness that I won't be fucking exhausted like last year (where I had to just plain walk out of Mardi's class because I was so fucking exhausted and had to go sleep in the car during the after party).

I have my German oral in a few minutes (no idea when exactly, the prof didn't post the schedule anywhere, so I may be sitting in front of his damn office for a whole hour).
All I know is that I am 4 something.

Ugh and I'm stressed out about my personal life. I feel like someone is avoiding me which is not the thing to do when problems are brought to the forefront! We have been discussing a lot of crap lately and I feel like now's the time to work on the problems brought forth. I also am afraid I may have been a bit too scary or something :S
I should stop caring so much, I really should.

Monday I am gonna go talk to the Dean again <3 hooray. And in the evening I will see The Cure <3 hooray!!!!
And then follows a fabulous month of concerts and bellydance and (hopefully fun and not douchey) Bay area ness.

Did I bitch about my really bad performance last week?
Ugh it was so embarassing. I was still getting over the whole MY STOMACH SUCKS thing and I was not feeling it. I fell out of my standing backbend and lost my spot when turning :|
At least my hair/make up/costume kicked ass!
I also think I weirded people out. Blah, so I'm not Shakira...at least I didn't do the Neubauten set, I think that would have sent them into psyduck orbit.


and here is a picture of said horrendous back bend incident. only pic i have of that night...with the exception of the LOLZ bathroom one which is my mainpic on my dance myspace now.




i think that was like half way down, i was doing one of those stop motiony kind of ones.
I know i can do better (refer to my gothla pics :P).

oh x mortis tomorrow... should I go? hm.